I am in a season of stretching. I’ve recently joined our women’s speaking team, I’ve changed my leadership role at church, I joined a new bible study from another church (I figured that was a good way to be really honest and open), and I broke up with my boyfriend. I guess you could say, I’m a life in transition. I’ve certainly experienced some growing pains these past few months as I desperately seek to live in the will of God.
So what am I learning?
I am learning to be content and consistent no matter my circumstances. That sounds dramatic but actually, it’s the opposite. I’ve been deep in the word lately and I read this week:
I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (Phillipians 4:11-13)
I have learned to be content in whatever circumstance I am. Ponder that for a moment with me. What does that look like?
More than anything lately I find that I am in uncomfortable situations. I’m not comfortable on stage. It’s uncomfortable being a stranger amongst friends. It’s awkward making new habits and routines when you break off a relationship. It stretches me when I write to each of you and share these things.
For the first time though, I am content. Phillipians says in humble means and prosperity, hungry or full, abundance or need but I would add to that list: single or in relationship, on stage or behind the scenes, anywhere with my fellow believers, and in leadership or as a servant (which let’s be real, being a leader requires a lot of serving as well).
The biggest challenge for me is not letting other people make me discontent. That’s a battle for me. Even a few weeks ago as I was having coffee with my Dad and talking about my future he started asking me questions about my next five years career wise, house wise, etc and I felt myself growing anxious thinking of all the things I needed to work on, do, strive for. They’re all good things and continuing to grow and build is important. However, I am completely unwilling to lose this place of contentment it has taken me twenty-eight years to find.
I am learning to be content in whatever circumstances I am.